Me and "Evaluasi".

When I was in college, there was one of my best friends named Fauzan. He introduced me to a band called ".feast". Honestly, the music wasn't really my cup of tea. But I tried to accept it, just to add to my musical knowledge. I think the music is weird. Bashkara's voice is also not good. But lyrically, it's a bit of a touch. 

Moreover, .feast has made a statement that I think is very controversial. He said, "Our song, "Peradaban", is much louder than any metal song we've ever heard, it's furious to the point of numbness.". 

.feast and images for the promotion of their single, "Peradaban".  At first glance, it looks like a painting of Jesus at the Last Supper

As someone who listened to metal songs from elementary school to college, I think this statement is ridiculous. Many are also furious with this .feast statement

In fact, this topic has exploded. Until it was discussed by the mainstream music media like Hai! Magazine and until the .feast apologized to music lovers. Indeed,  Bashkara is rather annoying when expressing his opinion. I think .feast deserves it all.

Long story short, .feast disbanded and Bashkara embarked on a solo career. I had also graduated from college and was already working in Jakarta. 

I have a best friend from kindergarten. His name is Fajar. He also really enjoys listening to Bashkara, maybe like Fauzan who I mentioned at the beginning of this post. I said, "Damn, why do people love bashkara?"

The problem is that when he first made that statement, I already had an "Ilang Feeling". So, when fajar tried to introduce Bashkara to me, I was not too interested in him. 

Until I finally stepped into the world of work and there were so many problems, especially from family, I tried listening to Bashkara's song title "Secukupnya". The most famous song of Bashkara. 

Oh yes, Bashkara finally used the stage name "Hindia". He said that it came from looking at Raden Saleh's painting and the words "Hindia Belanda".

When I listened to the song, I started thinking "How come the song really related with my adult life". And then, as usual, I tried to explore his songs, and I found a song called "Evaluasi".

And when I tried to listen to it and I absorbed the lyrics. Damn! It was so deep. Here I began to understand why Fajar and Fauzan liked Hindia so much.

I really enjoy listening to music from a musician but the live performance version, because I think it's more raw than the studio version that has been polished here and there. So, I want you to hear the live version of the Evaluasi by Hindia

Now, let's try to analyze the lyrics one by one. I want to interpret these lyrics based on my point of view. Let's take a look at the first paragraph

Yang tak bisa terobati, biarlah mengering sendiri. Menghias tubuh

 From this piece of lyrics, Bashkara tries to say that the wounds we have experienced, both physical wounds and mental wounds that are not yet finished, in the end we have to make peace with all these wounds and let them become part of our lives that decorate out body and minds.

Then we try to move on to the next lyric 

Dan yang mengevaluasi, ragamu. Hanya kau sendiri, mereka tak mampu melewati yang telah kau lewati tiap berganti hari. Rintangan yang kau hadapi.

 From here it is very clear that this point emphasizes that everything that happens has indeed been arranged by God. So, whatever things happen to us, basically it is because God knows we are able to get through it all. No one in the world plays a role in your life scenario as well as you do.

Masalah yang mengeruh. Perasaan yang rapuh. Ini belum separuhnya. Biasa saja, kamu tak apa.

At this point, Bashkara wants to convey the message that no matter how hard the problem is, no matter how frantic you feel, this is nothing. Because throughout life, there will always be problems waiting ahead. So, take it easy. You'll be fine. 

And I probably won't explain all the meanings of the lyrics. But there's one stanza that I think feels very personal to me 

Bilas muka, gosok gigi, evaluasi. Tidur sejenak menemui esok pagi. Walau pedih ku bersamamu kali ini. Ku masih ingin melihatmu esok hari.

I remember the moment I cried on the motorcycle when I heard these lyrics in the afternoon when I got home from work. "Bilas muka (wash your face), Gosok gigi (brush your teeth), Evaluasi (evaluation)". It is the routine of most people working in metropolitan areas when they come home from work.

I also do this routine, but for the "evaluation" part, I honestly rarely do it. Evaluation requires us to look at the events that happened today. Be grateful for what we have done well and try to improve tomorrow whatever is lacking from today.

These lyrics teach me to always be grateful for whatever happens to me today. 

"Tidur sejenak menemui esok pagi (Take a short nap to meet tomorrow morning)" - Again, the lyrics are very relate to me. I commute every day from home to office, office to home with a distance of more than 100km and that's all on a motorcycle. It feels very tired. But what can I do? This is the way and there is no other alternative.

I spend a lot of time on the road. Getting enough rest and sleep is a luxury for me. Imagine going to bed and waking up to suddenly be faced with going to work again. I've been doing this routine for the past year.

Especially when you have a problem that you have to face the next day. It feels very upset, but Bashkara tries  to say "let's sleep first, the things that exist tomorrow, just leave it to yourself tomorrow"

 Walau pedih ku bersamamu kali ini. Ku masih ingin melihatmu esok hari. (Although it hurts me to be with you this time. I still want to see, tomorrow) - Again, the lyrics really hit home with me. I often feel that everything is hopeless and it's better for me to just "end" my life in this world. 

But after everything that's happened, it feels like life is like this. There are always wounds, there are always problems. There's joy and there's sadness. Something that can't be avoided.

When we see life from a beautiful frame, the world will look like a beautiful place too. At first, we may not want to live here anymore, but as our perspective changes, we even wait to see tomorrow.

Thank you, Bashkara for the song. It makes me evaluate myself every day.